10-02-2005, 02:25 AM
~**... Dairy ...**~
February 1987
Sab kuch badal gaya, tum jo challay gai hoo.. asmaa hee chup gaya hai.. sehan mein laga tha jo... peepal woh gir gaya hai.. aab chaoon nahi hai milti.. dhoop daira jamaye baithi... sab loug badal gaiy hein... woh chehray bhi jo tumhari .. khushnoodi ko har pal.. miltay tu khil say thai jaatay.. ab miltay hain kahen tu... nazrain chura kay guzar hain jaatay..
kaya daikhtay ho tum bhi.. yeah kaya hoo raha hai.. khairaat mill rahi hai.. waqat ruk gaya hai daikho.. loug hans rahay hain daikho.. mool barh rahay hain daikho.. dar lag raha hai daikho.. koi khoo gaya hai daiho.. tum tu nahi hoo kaheen woh...
kiyon aisay lag raha hai.. yaheen kaheen pay hoo tum.. daikh nahi mein sakta.. mehsoos kar raha hoon.. kaya bool rahay hoo kuch tum.. mein keh raha hoon kaya kuch.. sun rahay hoo kaya tum.. choor kay mujh ko tunha.. challay gai kahaan ho.. bullawa aa gaya tha.. ?
par aisa kiyon howa tha.. battain theen mujh ko karni.. chutti kay din hum nay... sahil kay kinaray.... seepiyaan ikathee kar kay.... gharoonda bana kay koyee.. lehrain thee pakarni.. ya jhoot moot ka roo kay.. zid tum say thi mujh ko karni.. woh saray kaam humaray.. adhooray reh gai hain.. tum jo khoo gai hai.. bulawa jo aa gaya tha.. !!
loug mujh say poochtay hain.. itnay baray ho phir tum.. bachay say ho kiyon lagtay.. mein kaya kahoon un ko.. mara bachpan guzar raha tha.. hath thaam kay tumhara.. phir youn howa ik din.. mein so gaya tha shaid... din jo charaha tu daikha.. sab bayain kar rahay hain.. sab tum ko roo rahay hain.. poocha kaya hoo gaya hai tum ko.. kiyon roo rahay hoo itna.. kehnay lagay woh mujhay say.. tamhara baap mar gaya hai.. yateem hoo gai ho tum ab.. mein kaisay maan layta.. men kaisay tum ko roota.. mehsoos kar raha tha.. mein pass tum ko apnay..
din woh guzar gaya par.. woh lamha thehar gaya hai.. tum tu challay gai thai.. peechay mein reh gaya tha.. sab kehnay lagay phir mujh ko.. yeah baap kay hai jaisa.. hoo bahoo hai waisa.. choota sa tha mein bacha.. ban'na bara tha mujh ko.. woh bachpan jeeta tha jo mujh mein.. thapak kay ussay sullaya.. ban kay bara dikhaya..
laykin karoon mein kaya ab.. tazaad mein ghira hoon.. bara tu hoo gaya hoon.. tum sa mein ban gaya hoon.. laykin woh nanha bacha.. kandhay pay bitha kay jis ko.. sahil pay tum thai jaatay.. kahaniyaan thai sunatay.. sulata hoon mein uss ko.. par jaag woh hai jata.. ziddain ajeeb karta... kehta hai mujh ko woh yeah.. mairay baap ko bula do.. mujhay meethi neend sulla do.. !!!
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February 1987
Sab kuch badal gaya, tum jo challay gai hoo.. asmaa hee chup gaya hai.. sehan mein laga tha jo... peepal woh gir gaya hai.. aab chaoon nahi hai milti.. dhoop daira jamaye baithi... sab loug badal gaiy hein... woh chehray bhi jo tumhari .. khushnoodi ko har pal.. miltay tu khil say thai jaatay.. ab miltay hain kahen tu... nazrain chura kay guzar hain jaatay..
kaya daikhtay ho tum bhi.. yeah kaya hoo raha hai.. khairaat mill rahi hai.. waqat ruk gaya hai daikho.. loug hans rahay hain daikho.. mool barh rahay hain daikho.. dar lag raha hai daikho.. koi khoo gaya hai daiho.. tum tu nahi hoo kaheen woh...
kiyon aisay lag raha hai.. yaheen kaheen pay hoo tum.. daikh nahi mein sakta.. mehsoos kar raha hoon.. kaya bool rahay hoo kuch tum.. mein keh raha hoon kaya kuch.. sun rahay hoo kaya tum.. choor kay mujh ko tunha.. challay gai kahaan ho.. bullawa aa gaya tha.. ?
par aisa kiyon howa tha.. battain theen mujh ko karni.. chutti kay din hum nay... sahil kay kinaray.... seepiyaan ikathee kar kay.... gharoonda bana kay koyee.. lehrain thee pakarni.. ya jhoot moot ka roo kay.. zid tum say thi mujh ko karni.. woh saray kaam humaray.. adhooray reh gai hain.. tum jo khoo gai hai.. bulawa jo aa gaya tha.. !!
loug mujh say poochtay hain.. itnay baray ho phir tum.. bachay say ho kiyon lagtay.. mein kaya kahoon un ko.. mara bachpan guzar raha tha.. hath thaam kay tumhara.. phir youn howa ik din.. mein so gaya tha shaid... din jo charaha tu daikha.. sab bayain kar rahay hain.. sab tum ko roo rahay hain.. poocha kaya hoo gaya hai tum ko.. kiyon roo rahay hoo itna.. kehnay lagay woh mujhay say.. tamhara baap mar gaya hai.. yateem hoo gai ho tum ab.. mein kaisay maan layta.. men kaisay tum ko roota.. mehsoos kar raha tha.. mein pass tum ko apnay..
din woh guzar gaya par.. woh lamha thehar gaya hai.. tum tu challay gai thai.. peechay mein reh gaya tha.. sab kehnay lagay phir mujh ko.. yeah baap kay hai jaisa.. hoo bahoo hai waisa.. choota sa tha mein bacha.. ban'na bara tha mujh ko.. woh bachpan jeeta tha jo mujh mein.. thapak kay ussay sullaya.. ban kay bara dikhaya..
laykin karoon mein kaya ab.. tazaad mein ghira hoon.. bara tu hoo gaya hoon.. tum sa mein ban gaya hoon.. laykin woh nanha bacha.. kandhay pay bitha kay jis ko.. sahil pay tum thai jaatay.. kahaniyaan thai sunatay.. sulata hoon mein uss ko.. par jaag woh hai jata.. ziddain ajeeb karta... kehta hai mujh ko woh yeah.. mairay baap ko bula do.. mujhay meethi neend sulla do.. !!!
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